Well, What oyu need to know about me is nothing, you dont need anything but food water and air. What I will tell you is what i want to tell you. I need you to understand that.
I am a wife, a mother a friend and on most days a good employee.
I am starting to dislike my life. I have several things to be joyous of. i will not deny that. I have what I hope if a faithful husband, but there are a few arguments that make me really wonder. I have a couple of very healthy children. A home, Job, no big needs.
But I am still sad. I still hate my self at the end of the day. I feel like a fraud. Like i am pretending and coning every one around me.
I know its called lack of confidence, and low self esteem. but still I fight this demon every day.
I hate that I feel like i can do nothing right. Several times a day, I feel like a complete fuck up to my husband.
I feel inadequate at work. I am told several times a week on how my co workers are happy with my leadership and that i do a good job, but still everyday I tell my self that today i will just quit.
I grew up never thinking that I would do a great job.
confident and arrogance was a sin. when i grew up you did nothing that would set you different from any one else, Blend in to the background was the goal.
this is a little of me, I get more pathetic trust me.
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